Make it stop!

Feeling divided and that's division by more than two. Lots of tasks tug, loom, pull and weigh on me.  They have a life of their own seeking me out in the early dawn, haunting me in my dreams or flagging me down as I walk by the scattered "to do" piles.   The technology lures of today only make this worse. My mind is always moving, chatting, "ideating", analyzing - MAKE IT STOP!  Well maybe we shouldn't take it that far.  But what is one to do?

I want an algorithm that elegantly solves the equation of my life or at least my present problem statement.  I want to know where to focus my energies and where to not waste a nanosecond of my mind-share. I believe there is convergence, resonance and an elegant solution to be found for each one of us if we only could separate the noise from the signal of our unique human experience.

source: http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/ap130607.html  

Today there is more noise than ever and quiet solitude is a rarity.  Our human consciousness is heavy in the head and nearly nonexistent in the body and heart.   I am constantly thinking, judging, weighing rather than feeling, perceiving and experiencing.  I credit this to early philosophers & theologians who steered man toward intellectualized thinking which conceived ego, dogma, duality and ultimately a western Christian judgmental mindset that separates and distills God from its creation.  God above. Sinner below. God as judge. Man needing redemption.  Man needing to prove his worthiness. Man needing "to do".  No wonder my life is chaotic, anxious, out of step, foggy; no wonder it feels like an unsolvable equation.  I have been separated from the divine, the sacred, the source, the miracle.

I need to go back to the basics before duality took hold and the ego became inflated.  I need to stop feeding my ego which drives my compulsion to achieve, achieve, achieve.  I need to stop believing that productivity makes me worthy.  Settle down. Chill. Listen. Feel. Quiet my ego. Embrace my singular insignificance in this grand universe. It IS NOT about ME, my separateness nor my need for redemption.  It IS about the ALL.  ALL is one. ALL is connected. ALL is whole.  ALL is included.  No need to sort, separate, shed.  That is just a lot of damn work!

Source: http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/ap140301.html

Instead embrace the ALL and my connection with it.  Like a star within the cosmos let go and shine, participating in the greater unfolding of the universe. Today I choose to be more present in my body and more open with my heart, to feel and live my experience of being connected with this great mystical body and to express my unique melody within the infinite and expanding universal symphony.  This is what the mystics and Buddhists invite. This is what the cosmos suggests.  Possibly with this more holistic perspective the compulsion and lure of "the to do" cluttering my mind and time will fall away with the ego and the wisdom that I am connected with the sacred, the divine, the creator, the ALL will take hold ushering in the calm, quiet, clarity, convergence I seek - an elegant equation that shapes my days and presence.